..if you want to be given everything, give everything up..

Sunday, July 31, 2005

You can sit down in front of me..

So..yesterday the new batch of campers came in,. and i was feeling quite down with myself. I dono why and i dono how, i just wasn't in the right frame of mind. Anyway, in walked the first few cabins for lice checks. Nothing, everyone was fine. And then in walked cabin 6 and i raised my arm in a hail-taxi type thing to get a kid over to me to check his head and over walked a bright eyed Joey, i'm guessing..7 or 8. So i said to Joey, "you can sit down in front of me" and as i said this, i crouched onto a sitting position behind a bench on the floor. So joey looked at the floor and sat down on the floor opposite me beside the bench. And i couldnt help crack out laughing. I said, no Joey, on the bench. And he looked up at me with utter confusion, and moved onto the bench. Oh the innocence of a cabin 6er. Anyway, that kinda made my day yesterday, and got me into the right frame of mind!

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Luggage

So, last night at the worship service we watched a video by Rob Bell named, Luggage. I'm not going to bore with the details..but basically it was saying if we try and handle a past situation by ourselves we're basically saying we don't trust Jesus to do it for us. And i realised, their was something i've struggled to do for almost a decade, a forgiveness i havent been able to do..and i did it. Yea..also, last week at the worship service a song really stuck in my head that kinda tied in with myself and how i felt about the whole luggage thing. It's called "Fix You" by Coldplay. here are the lyrics:

When you try your best but you don't succeed When you get what you want but not what you need When you feel so tired but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse When the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste could it be worse? Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones And I will try to fix you High up above or down below when you too in love to let it go If you never try you'll never know Just what your worth Lights will guide you home and ignite your bones And I will try to fix you
Tears streaming down your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears streaming down your face and I Tears streaming down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down your face and I Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you

well..they're a little smooshed but the verse that has stuck with me most is the one with the line "i promise you i well learn from my mistakes" cuz really, realising that i had to forgive this person was basically telling for the past who knows how long i hadnt learned from my mistakes and i've kinda held on to this bit oh hatred i had., But now i have...all because of a video in an airport. Wow.

Friday, July 29, 2005

You'll never know unless you try..alriiiight

Oh boy. Camp is..well..underway..
4 weeks down. 4! Not 1, 2 or 3. But 4. And by 4 i mean 5. Just realised, wasn't really countnig Orientation week. I've had my ups..like climbing "UP" the rock wall..haha i joke. And my downs..like spraining my wrist the other night diving over the finish line in potato sack races. See, normally jumping as i did would have landed me on my feet. But, i seem to have forgotten that my feet were still in a bag. So i desperately tried to find the ground with my feet but to no avail, so i landed on my wrist instead. Oh the pain. Yea. Oh and today i kinda explored Toronto a little bit..and went to future shop and bought a digital camera. I still dont know how to use it or anything, but i have it! Happy happy joy joy! Woot? Is that the right word..not sure. Anyway, umm
i guess its that time of the summer to recall my favourite memory so far. This goes back to the little energetic Jacob in cabin 6 during either the first or second week of camp. No, the first. This kid had the most energy ive EVER seen in a 7 year old. So one day i'm sitting on the porch of cabin 6, and he walks up to me and starts reading "The Salvation Army" on my sleeve. So i said to him, know what the Salvation Army means? HE said camps. Alright..so i asked him..know what this means (in reference to my shirt which had the word "Saved" scrolled across it.) So he explained about how you save someone. And so i asked him if he knew who Jesus was. And so he started telling em about Moses and hitting the rock and water coming out. No Jacob, that was Moses. And so i told him about Jesus saving our sins. And all the wonderful jazz. And i told him finalyl, "I wear this shirt for Jesus". And he looks at his shirt, grabs it and says "I wear this shirt for Jesus too! It's a dragon. he likes those"
Anyway, that was Jacob, good kid. Anyway, i should go. I'll blog again sometime