the Million Dollar question

I wana keep this long. But to a point. See...in January i'm faced with a very difficult situation.
If i get into tyndale, i can devote all my time and efforts to that. No questions asked. Or. I could continue my full time job which i actually enjoy until camp starts, go to camp (hopefully). Then start school. For some this may not be a hard decision. But for me, it's not. Because if i go back to school i lose my full time job. And i won't have any money. But if i keep it and keep school on hold then il keep making over 500 every 2 weeks. Its so confusing. Because right now God is concentrating on my church life and such due to recent decisions so i haven't had a lot of time to be like. Oh, and God, January? Where to? Lol. It doesnt work like that so i just ask for a little prayer support so that in the end i wont make the right decision, but GODS Decision. Yea.

Also, as some of you know and were there, Oshawas youth bash was last night. And, i didn't know what to make of it, and didn't really get much out of it at all, until Adam Marshall spoke. He spoke of a very traumatic situation for him that happened, and about hw you need to ask for Gods help in all situations. This is SO true. Ok. Bear with me this is a hard thing for me to talk about. Over the past few months i have been dealing with something that has been hard to change. And i've always been too afraid or busy to ask for Gods help. But hearing Adams story made me realise i CANNOT wait for something that bad to happen before asking for Gods hlep. Thats the stupid way to do it. So i've decided i'm gona ask for Gods help now. But i'm gona work on fixing this. And it's not as bad as it sounds to be honest, but its something small that ive needed help with. And now i'm gona get it. Please pray for me though. Thanks.

Jack Black in a Box 1 2?

Ok, Have you ever seen one of those TTC posters with the super confusing puzzles that you can NEVER figure out and it bugs the HECK out of you until you're like "oh, I get it now!". Yea, my friend and i had one of those. And we couldn't for the LIFE of us figure out what the heck it was. Let me paint a picture for you. It had a backwards 1. A Square. Then a backwards 2. AAHHHHHHH i was so confused. Anyway, its like that a lot in life. For me at least. I never quite know what God is trying to do with my life, it's SO confusing sometimes, as previously stated as well. So i guess sometimes i just need to sit back and let the answer come to me. Yea. Oh and, i'm rpetty sure the answer is "In a blockout" Cuz 1 backwards is ENO, like INA, the box could be "blocking" the 2. And 2 backwards sounds like "out". I dono. Thats what i got out of it. Ahhhh another comment will be longer. Don't you worry.

the raise

So this week has been interesting for me. I've always wanted a raise at work. I mean, here i am, working 40 hours a week and ive been there for almost a year and i make $7.66 an hour. now THATS frustrating. So every day i wait for a good opportunity for a raise. Nothing ever came up. So then Wednesday came. Wednesday is usually the slowest day, but this one had a little spark at the end of it. My supervisor says, want your pay stub? And i said, sure. And as i started to tear the perforated lines, i thoguht to myself, man i really want that raise. And to my surprise, i now make $8.14 an hour! So that was cool, and an answer to prayer really. Because over the past bit the talk with God has been either show me commitment from work (Raise or such), or find me a new job. And he did one of those things. The first one. lol. YAY God. Anyway, today was seniors day. I'm tired. BYE!

the TRUTH about zippers

Interesting Story:

There was a guy named Billy Bob Joe. Other interpretations of the story include the name Ian, but we won't go into how that came about.

On a somewhat bright Monday morning, Billy went to do up his jacket. And i'm not talking the good kind of "do-up" either. On this particular morning, Billy's zipper decided to get caught in the fabric on the outside of the zipper. I don't know if anyone reading this can explain to me how this happens. But it did. and so a fight ensued, first verbal, with the zipper saying some things he probably shouldn't have....then Billy called him a "good for nothing zipper"...(the zipper doesn't like being called a zipper), and so the zipper got in a huff and decided to dig more into the cloth, at oh, let's say the exact same time that Billy is pulling up on the intertwining teeth of the metalic jaws of life, so to speak. So if you can picture a penguin having coffee with a panda, ur on the right track. And so one thing led to another....UNTIL!!!!!!!


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billy pretended to grab another jacket ready for a switch so the zipper let his grip go a little bit on a fabric and Billy YANKED on the zipper SO hard, flinging his own head against the wall, making a loud, rather dull 'thud', the zipper popped open and thus was thus. Unfortunately, by popped open i do mean popped open. Kind of like the jaws got ripped apart. Yea, i know. It's like the death of the zipper, an A & E special. What a tragedy.
But, i am happy to report that the zipper is safely put back in its place. The garbage. And billy now has a fully working, open flapped, no zippered jacket. Who he calls Bob. I dont know why he does this. Do you?

"turn that off"

So i work at a Shoppers Drug Mart, here in Toronto, and one of the most annoying things at work is the choice of music played over the P.A. it's usually either really slow and bland or is someone i've never even heard about (Re: Avril Lavigne, lol jk jk)...except for this one song.. everyday they play "I can only imagine" once. And, although once is not nearly enough to get the message through the people, it's enough to lift my spirits every morning. Just being able to zone out into my own world and think about my life as a Christian while asking a customer if they have an Optimum card is something i truly cherrish and will never take for granted. A few mornings ago though, the song came on, so i decided to play it over the phones loudspeaker too so it would be close to my own ears as well, unfortunately, my supervisor does not see the song the same way i do.
"Turn that off" she remarked. and now i was faced with a dilemna, u see, either i listen to my boss, so to speak, or i listen to my Father in heaven, and keep it on. God didn't want me to turn down the song, so i didn't. I just pretended like i didn't hear what she was asking, and basically ignored her request. Not the smartest thing to do in a job setting, but still. It was worth it. It might take weeks it might takes months but one morning someone, wether it be a staff member or a customer will really listen to the words, and it will move them. I believe it, and so every morning i shall turn up the speaker right next to my cash register and let it play. yea, turn that off? Not gona happen.

from Moving provinces to moving churches..

Well..it's been a whole 5 hours since my last post....and i was about to go to bed, as i do, when i had something on my heart i thought i'd share. I do realize there's only maybe 2 people who know who i am or who have read anything...but still. More will follow. Being in the Salvation Army, and with my parents being officers i know all to well what it's like to be packed up and shipped off to another place. But this fall came a decision even i didn't want to make. I wanted to leave the church that had been my home for a year and join a different church, because that's where God was leading me. The problem was, i believe the devil was giving me guilt, and making me feel bad for even considering God's plan, which worked for a while until i started talking to people at my original church and they told me i need to do what's best for me. So i prayed about it, and God really pushed me in the direction of Scarborough. So i finally decided that i wasn't going to let any mind games Satan pulled get the better of me and just move on in my life to this new church. Which was harder than i had thought. I mean, when you move with parents its a little different, because its either you go with them or you live on your own, which, even working full time at a minimum wage job can't pay for. But when leaving a church to join another church it leaves a few people feeling different towards me, asking questions as to why, and if they weren't good enough. Frankly, questions i don't know how to answer. But i know that God has a plan for me and that he will reveal this magnificent plan to me and then all these wonderers about the move will realize what has happened and be happy for me. At least, i can only hope. A good verse to remember is always James 1:2-4. I could type it out. Or you could look it up. Frankly, one of the 2 options gets you reading your bible.
that's all from me, sorry for the rambles, although i guess that's the main reason for my Bloging...LOL.....Happy reading

the thing about God

Well, I'm kind of "new" to this whole Blog idea. I mean sure the thought crossed my mind but never before have i ever done this myself without outside help. Weird. Anyway, i think the main idea is to share my thoughts. So here goes.
All my life i've kind of wondered what God has been telling me, or where he's wanting me to go and such. So finally i gave up trying to find answers by myself and asked for the advice of a close Christian friend and he told me that God doesn't ALWAYS tell us what he wants us to do. I was like WHAT!??! But once he explained it more and i was less shocked from his first remark, i realized how right he really was. All this time i've been worried too much about hearing God clearly and knowing EXACTLY what's going on, like concentrating too hard on it when really i just need to sit back and let God be the boss, when he wants me to know, I'll know. Until then i need to develop trust in faith in him in knowing that he does have a plan for me, and maybe this not knowing thing is part of it, to develop my perseverance
for when he does decide to tell me. i don't know. All i know is i can trust God and believe he has a plan for me, and wait until his Perfect timing to tell me what that is. I hope some of this made sense, sometimes i like to ramble. Wait. All the time.

God Bless!